My parents are moving out of our home this weekend. Thank goodness it isn’t my childhood home. That was traumatizing. There’s no way I could be 2000 miles away while they packed up the house I grew up in. So this time, it’s a little better. But not much.
My first house was my nest. It shaped me and protected me and provided for me through all my formative years. Our second home, for the last 12 years, was still my safe haven, because my parents were there, but it saw me try to spread my wings & leave the nest. It saw this quite a few times – I’ve moved in & out of there so much I lost count – it’s seen me through so many life changes & transitions.
Then I left. I’ve spent the last year & a half trying to build my own home on the other side of the country. It’s a weird feeling. Not being there to help pack and move. Not being there to say goodbye. When I was home for Christmas, I had no idea it would be my last there. I took for granted the last time my Dad & I washed and detailed my car under that one tree – a bonding experience that became a Saturday tradition. Never again will I run barefoot through the yard, out to catch the sun setting over the hayfield, or fish in the pond, trying desperately to reel in a big one.
It’s weird that when I go home next to visit my parents, I’ll be staying somewhere that I’ve never lived in, that never belonged to me. My room will be four walls and a bed. If those walls could talk, they would say nothing about me; they don’t know me. I’m glad I’m not there to see our empty home. To see everything packed down into boxes. It’s a bit sad. And it’s definitely strange to think that this weekend will be somber for me, and tough for my parents and yet, somewhere, a family is really excited about moving into their new home.
We’re tossing it aside like it is trash. But this home will be their treasure. Just as that home gave me many memories to treasure, and just as it has reminded me to not take for granted where you are in each moment, as it may be the last time you experience it, it will provide the same for its new family.