October is always one of my favorite months, and this one didn’t disappoint. It also seemed long, but not in an irritating, miserable way. The kind of way where it just never ran out of things to offer. It was cozy, the way it should be when summer is winding down and fall is settling in.
My favorite part of October was the birth of my bestie’s new baby, finally making me an auntie! It’s incredible the love you can feel in your heart over a new tiny person! He is perfect and I’m already in love.
While meeting my new little nephew was the highlight, the rest of the month was pretty on point, too. In my most recent post, I wrote about being vulnerable to love. Well, this month, I also practiced being vulnerable to life. I let my guard down in more ways than one. Up till now, my life in LA was still in the transition phase. Lately, though, I’ve allowed myself to give more consideration to planting some roots. I had been afraid to do this. Afraid I would get attached to something I would lose. Afraid that by choosing and building a life here, I was rejecting my past and my home.
I spent October facing those fears. I set myself free from anything holding me back from jumping in and being in love with the moment. Maybe nothing exciting happened in October. I didn’t conquer any new feats, attempt any amazing challenges, or witness a once in-a-lifetime event. But, I did let myself decide to make a home and relish in the comfort of being present in that place.
There’s something about creating a routine and settling in for the journey that makes me feel content. It’s important to remain in control and aware of that, of course. I don’t want a life consisting only of boring routines. I want adventure and the freedom to create new stories. But, at the end of a long day or a busy week, it’s so nice to know those staples are there. It’s refreshing and gives me something to look forward to and hold on to. It’s nice that after leaving home several months ago, I’ve finally been able to find value in some of the new elements of my life. There are friendships, places and activities worth prioritizing. I’ve discovered that I can allow these things to have an important role in my life. As time flows on, the details will change and a lot of factors will come and go. But to know there’s a solid foundation in place, groundwork that I consciously laid, that gives me a sense of security.
Having created a home allows me to move forward with a sense of belonging and that is exciting to me. It’s going to lend to discovering more positive additions to my life. It’s going to lead to more opportunities to create amazing memories. I’ll still go home and have my routines there that I’ll fall back into while I’m visiting. I may find myself moving in the future and having to settle into a new space again. But, for now, I’ve decided to throw myself into the discomfort of the unknown. I may be building a life that won’t last, but there’s a freedom in knowing that. I owe it to myself to fully experience every moment, take it for what it is, and just enjoy the process.